Sunday, 8 August 2021

SHE

                                   SHE


she is poetry 
she has flaws
she is art
she has scars

she is not the colours
but she is the emotion behind them
life not in monotone
but in jolly orange and bad blue bright

she is largely out of their control
not bound in the chains of mankind
but free from the bondage of 
they dread her next move
they fear her complete existence

she is loved by all
but not by her
she wakes up every morning 
to fight the demons within
while the ones outside wait 

she is captivating 
she is mysterious
she is labyrinth 
you would love to get lost in

she is independent
need nobody for she can run her own show
she makes her choices
which often make you turn

she is not the sweetest soul 
you have known
she is firey
she is bitter
she is ice
but she melts to

she is not pretty 
she is not attractive
she won't catch your eyes in your glances
but her aura will draw you 


she does not have stars  in her eyes 
no, the sun doesn't  shine when she smiles 
cuz she is raw 
she is real
she is the truth we hold

                                      pakhi



I am not perfect but I crave perfection to a point it's devastating, it's unhealthy. But slowly I have begun to realise that there is no definition of perfection. Perfection is an expectation set high in the sky by our own minds, which is often perceived by our brain to be our motive.  I am a mess, my laughter does not hold the world no my eyes don't sparkle when I smile but I am happy. I have hundreds of flaws, I have scars deeply rooted within. I carry them around like they are a part of me, and they are, but now a happy part. I like being a royal mess, this mess helps me breathe and the chaos keeps me alive.  I am raw and real and that is the most attractive part of me.  


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Sunday, 1 August 2021

PARALLEL WORDS

                     PARALLEL WORLDS


we all dwell here
I partly do too
but I stay there more 
a separate world


A parallel universe
in my crumpet
a world that feeds on me
concomitantly lets me breathe

it thinks a lot
it overthinks a lot
it makes up stories
it manipulates the gone
it deduces the coming
 
if I smile too bright
it questions my beam
if I cry too loud 
it makes me doubt

It criticises every move of mine
and replays every sentence 
the vinyl is stuck at a point 
the words embedded in my heart in handwriting so fine

 
it needs me to be phlegmatic
but competes me to Be emotive
it's a constant war

its a battlefield
sometimes I bleed 
sometimes on people 
sometimes on paper
and I don't like to 

but at the end of the day
I return to my parallel world
for the world gives me comfort honestly
but destroys me simultaneously
                                      
                      
 
                                                   pakhi


BE VULNERABLE
 BE EMOTIVE 
LAUGH-CRY 
FEEL  THAT EMOTION
GOOD BAD HAPPY SAD MIXED COMPLICATED EVERYTHING
We are human beings and well GOD intended us to have emotions. No sweetie! we are not robots and how long can u hold back. Laugh the loudest, cry the nosiest because when push comes to shove we have hearts. Delicate, tender, nurturing, growing tearing, breaking and we need to live that heart.
No one is cold, no one is ice, no one is made a stone we choose to hide. When not reciprocated when not acknowledged when not appreciated we begin to hide behind walls. Walls so high they become difficult to tear.
But hey! It is good to feel and you no longer need to hide.
SEEK HELP WHEN IT STARTS EATING YOU



                                                             
                                                                   
                                                      
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Sunday, 25 July 2021

ONE WORD FOUR LETTERS

                     ONE WORD FOUR LETTERS







Let me tell you a story
not of people 
but of two souls
souls that yearned for each other 

the souls that fell for each other 
no, they were not perfect
they were the opposite 
of  who you see in stories
  
she is not me 
he is not you
they are us 
between me and you
in this world but together in theirs

they did not fall at the first sight
but after numerous fights
nagging their way through
but they stuck by  like glue sticks

they didn't need each other 
for they were complete on their own
they uniquely filled the gaps
neither knew had been void

she tripped he picked her up 
he fell she lifted him up
they complemented their supplementary 
 the pieces of the unknown puzzle had found each other

they would call each other silly names
talk like no  would understand 
people thought they were a mess
oh, they were, 
but the mess they liked


they burned like fire alone
but were the volcano together
the most complete incomplete souls 
found their piece
their shadows held hands
when the sun kissed their hearts
 

cuz one word, four letters
the twisted barks 
the beautiful flowers
the yellow-green leaves
they lived it all
                          


                                 pakhi 

                                                                                😁       

 they fell...................................................

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Sunday, 18 July 2021

NO APOLOGIES

                              No Apologies 






I am me with no apologies
never going to leave my true identity
not your clay to mould
I am my own art in bold

The feeling of being misunderstood 
for the abilities I have good
left it a while ago
I am me at full brightness

The chaos of my soul 
has born me a star
one that shines under no one's power
the brightest on my canvas 

The warm fire  in my belly
The fiery warmth in my heart
can rebuild the satan
or beat him at his  own game
 
you put me in that box of yours 
but darling I am a caterpillar 
and your box is my shelter
soon I  will break out of
your box stronger and happier

I was taught to  fight then flight
shove it in their face
show em what's right
tell them "baby the games you play I am the ace"

It's my story
I get to write it my way
The way that I love me 
The way I see me
The way I want to


                           Pakhi

Trust me you are a work. Even if you are a work in progress you deserve credit. Every day we take a step to a better us.  We heal, we grow, we love, we live, we laugh, and we cry and that itself is a creditable effort. Some days it is also completely fine to make no progress as a huge part of progression is rest and giving yourself the time. It's okay not to feel on top of the world. You don't have to force happiness on yourself rather try to gracefully accept it. As to heal we need to feel all those emotions we all have been bottling up.  In that process, you need not feel sorry for the person you are. Love yourself the way you are while every day making progression.  



                                                      TO GIVE THE WORLD THE LOVE YOU HOLD 
                                                      YOU NEED TO LOVE YOURSELF FIRST

                                   
                                                                          Pakhi 

                   
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Sunday, 11 July 2021

MY FIRST MAN

                                      

                             MY FIRST MAN




I held your finger first at your 30
I am still holding your finger at your 45
I will hold your finger on your 75 85 95 105
Cuz when the world goes dim 
when the lights fade out
when the storm brews within
you are my light fight and flightπŸ˜‰


when it's 2 and I can't sleep 
cuz my mind runs faster 
than my brain can perceive
you hold me close
you hold me tight
you keep me safe

 you stand in the corner and smile
and I know I am gonna be alright
as you are right beside me
beaming  at me faintly
telling me it is worth a fight
I can do it if I want
I could mend it if I like

well you are the only  love of my life
just please don't tell your wife

your finger will always be the one
I will look for even if I hit a home run
I will always be your little girl
bumping and falling everywhere with a twirl

 &                                                   

My first man, you will always be 
logically protecting and saving me 

                                                    Pakhi


                                                          HAPPY BIRTHDAY PA πŸ’•
 
     



Sunday, 4 July 2021

THE UNKOWN KNOWN

                  

                          The Unknown Known




  













I glance at her
A familiar figure, a different person
a new person
she who I have never met

Oh !! her smile once so warm, warm as toast
Is cold, so cold, my bones shiver and freeze
she laughs at my jokes 
a similar voice but a different sound 

I listen to her
I fail to hear her 
the person is  no longer mine
she belongs to the world that I ain't thine

though she has not changed
the same person 
she of  yesterday 
she of  today 
she of  tomorrow 
to me is distant in 
The Unknown Known

                                  - Pakhi
   

 Sometimes suddenly you feel that your relationship with a person has changed. Their aura around you is no longer the same. The person you knew seems like a distant memory. A familiar voice a familiar laugh but a different feeling.  Not with everybody; that particular person. Nothing has really changed but your proximity with that person has changed. The person is still the same but you no longer feel the same. It feels that you might topple down their arms and they will no longer try to hold on to you. You can anticipate your big fall........





                                You learn to value a moment when it turns into a memory..........
       
 
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Sunday, 27 June 2021

THE END

                            

  END

  lets start with the end



 The End 

sometimes the end comes so soon that 
u are not prepared for it

sometimes ends are so abrupt
that u have not planned for it

sometimes ends are so disappointing
that your  heart cannot embrace for it

sometimes end is not the end
but a new beginning for it 

                                            -Pakhi

Sometimes  the end come so soon that we are not ready for it. You know that the end is near . You know where you are heading  but just don't want to accept it. You like the feeling you discern , but what if the end is not really the end of everything. What if it the start of something new , something that has always been waiting for you, something your are destined to do. The end is  something you need to grow from and move into the beginning you deserve.
   

You are all the colors at once in full brightness ____ Theodore Finch

 Pakhi 

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